--lost--

distant
detached
empty
void
hollow
lights out
spacey
lost

--random thoughts VII--

Anxious moments waiting
I stare at the front door
I stare till the lights fade out
Till the noises in my head subside

--sleepover--

The room is breathing
I stare into nothingness
You
Lying next to me
I watch over you
I watch you sleep
Your steady breathing
I envy your serenity
I breathe
I drift

--random thoughts VI--

there is kindness in your silence
serenity in your eyes
yearning in you touch
you are my first and last mistake
my unrealized
my unattained



----inspired by a conversation i had with Tea:)

Top Ten movies to watch when you're pissed

I rarely get mad but when i do i am really MAD (in the purest sense of the word) i am a movie aficionado and i realized that watching violent movies alleviates the anger and it somehow calms me, hence the list below:

1. Wanted. Aside from the fact that Angelina Jolie is the prettiest creature in this universe and James Mcavoy's ruggedly handsome appearance, this movie is number one on my list, Why? let's put it this way, if you hate your job and you hate the people you work with (and you have voiolent thoughts about your boss) you have got to watch this. There's always a "Janice" in the workplace (the overweight chick who likes to intimidate her subordinates with her stapler) and of course, eveyone can relate to Wesley.
2. The Fight Club. Brad Pitt and Edward Norton -- need i say more?
3. Seven. More eye candy (Brad Pitt and Gwyneth Paltrow), Kevin Spacey did an awesome job playing a sociopath (he's scary). And if you plan to kill someone without getting caught, this is the movie for you.
4. Man on Fire. A different side of Denzel Washington, hardcore and extremely violent.
5. Natural Born Killers. A film by Oliver Stone, it's about the life of fugitive lovers Mickey and Mallory Knox and yes, they like to kill people.
6. Reservoir Dogs. Quentin Tarantino rocks. More eye candy, Michael Madsen is so hot in this movie and he manages to keep his boyish demeanor while torturing people.
7. Kill Bill Volume 1. Blood and gore. Revenge is a dish served better cold. Uma Thurman can kick serious ass.
8. Kill Bill Volume 2. More blood and gore. Michael Madsen is in this movie (he is still hot despite his age and yes, i'd sleep with him in a heartbeat)
9. Hostel. Blood, body parts and dead people everywhere, this is the most violent movie i've ever seen. Travel Tip: When you're in a foreign country, dont talk to strangers, dont drink too much, dont look for sex and never get high.
10. Patholgy. Peter Petrelli stars in this flick, it's about a group of young doctors who like to play God and it features creative ways to kill people.

--random thoughts--

God Bless the internet!!!!!

--inked--

I got my 6th tattoo last week. Nothing fancy, it’s an Ohm (I feel the need to explain what an OHM is…in Hindu belief, it’s a symbol for the sound of the universe). You might be wondering about the other tattoos I have, here goes…..

I have always been fascinated with tattoos and body art. My interest in tattoos increased when I saw Chris Garver, he’s like the God of Tattoos –at least for me and one of the closest friends has a lot of tattoos, (I don’t want to sound cheesy but Tea is the sister I never had). I had my first taste of the needle, December 2007. I have a high tolerance for pain, but it hurt like hell. I can give a myriad of reasons why it hurt and I’m pretty good at describing things.

· The tattoo artist weighs 200 lbs give or take (use your imagination)
· He has huge hands – im not exaggerating, he has NON-Human huge hands
· I got inked on my nape
· Imagine all of his weight on my shoulders while two needles slash and puncture my skin and all the blood dripping – nah! there’s no blood, I’m exaggerating (at least I didn’t see any)
Enough of the blood and gore, I got my other tattoos the following year.
· “Tacet.” that’s Latin for silence. I got this along my waist, near the bikini line
· “Dum spiro, spero.“ That’s Latin for “while I breathe, I hope.”
· Tea and I decided to spend sometime together and we got inked. I got an ambigram along my ribs and she got “Rohan”
· There’s a time in our life that we are allowed to be corny and childish. I had my “corny” moment and decided to get stars embedded in my skin.

I had my first tattoo retouched as well…..and lemme tell you it hurts like hell. The original plan was to buy pirated DVD’s and I ended up having my ink retouched. It was a funny experience. Whenever I get inked, I always listen to my ipod because I hate the sound of the tattoo machine while it slices and punctures my skin. The sound is similar to a group of killer bees buzzing all the same time. I wasn’t expecting pain because I had 5 tattoos already and I feel like I’m used to the pain. So I set my ipod to full blast and started listening to “Air Supply” (one of those days when I listen to corny music). When my tattoo artist started doing the outline, I was stunned because of the pain, I wanted to faint – it felt like all of the air is being sucked out from your lungs. The worst part is - I can’t react, I can’t even flinch because I wanted to maintain my cool and calm demeanor.

Lessons learned:

· Never listen to Air Supply while getting inked
· No matter how calm and cool you are, you will feel pain when 3 needles start to poke your skin in rapid succession

I haven’t mentioned anything about Grams’ disgust with people with body art, have I? Chill! She didn’t disown me or something. I know for a fact that I am the only one in our family, who likes tattoos. After getting my first tat, I was hell-bent on hiding it from Grams. She’s cool and all but I’m not sure how would she react if she sees my tat. And to my credit I was successful in hiding it from her for almost 6 months (during that time she rarely visits my place). One gloomy afternoon, I was preparing coffee in the kitchen when the door swung open and she came in (yes, grams teleported from Bulacan to see me). I was preparing to get the bashing of my entire life when she said:

“Ano yan tattoo?” (She asked that while she’s poking my nape with her index finger)
I uttered a silent prayer and said, “Opo” (then I closed my eyes)
“Eh, bakit ang liit?”
I chuckled and said….”Ayoko ng malaking tattoo eh.”
“Next time, agila ipalagay mo or dragon…” (Grams still managed to be sarcastic while maintaining her cool.)